SOULLESS SINGER

First of all, I want to greet my beloved readers, Hi, how are you? I wish you are fine. Now, I want to tell you about my hobbies. My hobbies are so many, such as, singing, dancing, fashion, make-up, reading, and learning something new. But, one hobby that I like the most is singing. I’ll tell you more about my experiences when I sing and it is also talking about God, maybe you can be more faithful to God.

Singing was one of the talents that I had, I really like to singing. Since I was 12 years old I always joined many singing competitions in my hometown, Rembang. Usually before I went to the stage, my mother and I prayed for my performance. We prayed that the Lord would be with me, and that He would be pleased when I sang on the stage. I have won many singing contests. But, those achievements made me become an arrogant person until I forgot to pray to God.

My achievements changed my priority. Time went by, and I kept singing, singing and singing, joining a variety of singing competitions until one day I started to forget to read the Bible and to pray to say thank you to God. Do you know what was the worst? Yes! I never went to the Church anymore with the reason that I needed a long time to practice my voice for various singing competitions. I was 16 years old at that time in 2013. I was a senior high school student. Sometimes I worried about my competitions rather than God. At that moment, I began to put Him somewhere after the singing contests in my heart, not as my top priority anymore. 

I started to be arrogant with the talent that I had. One day, when I joined a singing contest at the Grand Hotel, I refused to pray before I went to sing at the stage. Then at the end of the contest, when the champions were announced, I got no position at all. Of course, I was very angry and disappointed, and it felt like there was a huge stone wrecking my heart so hard. I couldn't hold back my tears and I ended up crying. Since that time, I didn't want to join any competitions.

As time passed, I began to realize what was important in my life. My father, my mother and my sisters always gave me supports and asked me to cheer up again. To be honest, my family made my heart felt better. My third sister, Grishana is a preacher. She advised me and explained a very special thought it was about Jesus. Then I realized an important thing for my life. I always refused Him, never prayed and never read the Bible, never went to the Church since I was busy with my stupid competitions. I was act like singing is everything. But the truth was not like that. The most important thing was being faithful with God. I cried again, considering how good our God was in each and every part of my life. He had processed me to become as beautiful as I was now. After that, I prayed together with my family in the living room as usual.

I did not believe that God still loved me and processing my personality to be better. From this experience, I realize that we can do anything with God. Everything is possible with God. However, I should stayed to put Jesus in the first place in my heart. I would like to give thanks to God for being a part of my sweet memories. I also feel blessed that I could change my point of view about singing. I hope by this experience you can learn something and more trust in God. I will always pray for you. Thank you. ^^

♥BETWEEN ME AND WRITING ♥

Hay guys… long time no see ;) Finally, I use my blog again, well here I want to introduce myself to all of you who read it. I hope you like it. Okay first, my name is Ajeng Retnaning Palupi, my family calls me Poppy and I don’t know why I can be called Poppy. I was born on May 10, 1997, Rembang. Now, I’m studying at Faculty of Language and Culture, UKSW (Universitas Kristen Satya Wacana). My Father is a civil employee and my mother is a teacher at SMP N 3 Rembang. I have four sisters and I’m the last child in my family.  My hobbies are singing, dancing, and buying a new teeth brush every month. Maybe it sounds crazy, but … that’s me.  Next, my favorite colors are pink, white, black, and gold. My favorite food is meat. My favorite drinks are mineral water and everything that made from banana. I have some dreams, my dream is to be a professional photographer and a designer. I really like fashion. Although my parents disagree with that, my mother really wants me to be a teacher and my father force me to be a civil employee. But actually, deep in my heart, I won’t to be a teacher or civil employee, but I feel like there is a hole inside my heart if I say no to my parents, I really confused and I really sad if I can’t  be my parents’ expectation.  Sometimes, life is hard. And that’s why I need Jesus. I keep praying and stand firm in Him whatever who I am to be in the future, I still believe that Jesus has a pretty plan in my future.  

Next, I want to tell you about some pieces of my college life. In college, I have studied about listening, speaking, writing and grammar. But the most lesson that I like is writing because when I write I can explore my imagination and my emotional in my paper sheets, it feels like I have my own world. And I ever wrote several short stories but in Indonesian. Of course is not as easy as you think because I have to work hard for every idea. It means that sometimes I have difficulties to reach some ideas and I need some inspirations to write, beside that I have been challenged many things in grammar when I writing in English, I must pay attention with every sentence that I wrote because grammar is very important. Then I shouldn’t make grammar errors when I write some words because typo can change everything (the meaning). And my expectations in Writing for Media class are, First, I want to improve my skill in writing. Second, I wish that my brain can accept ideas, imaginations, or inspirations to write something more quickly. So, I can be a creative writer. And I hope every work that I write can satisfy every reader.

Oh…. My God, I don’t realize that time going too fast, now it’s the time for  closing, but don’t worry I’ll make this blog still alive and I will explore more creative story in this blog. Thank you very much for everyone who read this… God bless and see you when I see you. ^w^